Why are all the hot 🔥 men gay 😭❓ I wish I had penis sometimes or actually most of the time I do honestly 🌹

Hey guys out there with penises that are bi sexual and not afraid to admit you like penis in ya booty . I used to make jokes to my ex boyfriend Nicholas that I'm done sucking his dick because it smelled like butthole , but I was totally just kidding Lol I actually quit did quit sucking his penis because I couldn't get it off 😭 because Nicholas was hot 🔥 and no he wasn't gay y'all . He just liked sexy hot 🔥 slut bitches who could give him hot 🔥 nasty sex that I always miss out on and in no way no position to even try to give because well I'm not gonna say it because I'm really desperate for money and not only a big fat loser in society but I'm a pathetic low class escort who deserves to spend her days alone masterbating by herself with only her vibrator thinking of her long lost lover Nicholas Miesner getting out of jail and flaunting some hot 🔥 slut bitch right in front of her . Ok her is me my matha fucking self . And I have no choice but to fantasize about me on accident walking in on Nicholas Miesner getting fucked so good and nasty by a good little bitch sitting right on his dick bouncing up and down and going hard on it like a good little bitch slut , and to keep it real with y'all I honestly when watching rape scenes while masturbating think of those kind of bitches when I'm climaxing to my hateful haten hoe bitch slut orgasm and it's usually death after he bust either on the movie or in my imagination mostly in my imagination cuz on television he isn't always killer afterwards . Yep secretly I'm a haten as bitch to the hot 🔥 bitches and I think they should all be crucified and burned 🔥🔥🔥🔥🔥😈😈😈 . But anyways I'm kinda passed being embarrassed about the things that get me off and the extreme they have to go in my imagination for me to bust so good and nasty . But I'm fucking pissed at GOD that he made me this way and let me be so ignorant, stupid , lazy , and fat all my life that I missed out on some hot nasty bonerific hard dick sex . FUCK YOU GOD AND FUCK YOUR SON JESUS 🖕🖕🖕 . ( It should have been me that was born to marry and not Jesus why couldn't I have been the savior because as much as guilt and shame I truly carry within myself no man will ever be pure hearted enough to take a look at me and take seriously with close on or even off for sure . It's always the bad hot 🔥 bitches who wins like nice guys finish last ) WELL AGAIN FUCK YOU GOD 🖕🖕🖕😈😈😈😭😭, FUCK YOU JESUS MESSIAH 🖕🖕🖕 FOR BEING BORN BEFORE ME AND TAKING MY PLACE IN THIS REALM . Anyways every body I'm don't blaspheming GOD right now but that just had to come out shit . I mean I deserve to complain if I can't bust a nut correctly GOD DAMNIT . WITHOUT FEELING SO GOD DAMN DISGUSTING AFTERWARDS WITH MYSELF TO THE POINT I WISH THE ANSWER WAS SLICING MY TROAT OR WRIST OPEN . And have no fucking choice because it's to late at that point but to bleed 🩸🩸🩸🩸🩸 out and just fucking meet my fate and die like a disgusting dirty fat little bitch right .I don't mean little as in size I mean little as in not shit but literally shit 💩💩💩💩 . So since I'm a dumb stupid cunt that refuses to surrender to getting rented out for a decent donation 🌹 but at the same time learned that sucking penis bare back for 30 bucks isn't helping me get the donation I'm so desperate for right . I agree y'all I'm a stupid dumb bitch . I'm really surprised I havent been killed yet out here . I guess the clock is just ticking right before it's my time to have had enough of staring my worthless self in the mirror to where I have no choice but to do it myself. Kill myself . So I'm posting this ad for yalls help . Please help me commit suicide I'm thinking with more embarrassment and the reject of Nicholas Gene Miesner after he gets out of jail because I will find his ass . I think it's that moment I'm waiting for to see if he'll accept me back or not . And if I get to done in by nasty smelling like butthole penis I guess he won't want me any more right. I mean hell he didn't want me then he won't want me now . I basically paid for his penis for 4 months for 20 thousand dollars . Let's be talking about it cuz I'm getting pissed off . If any of you have any questions about that just hit me up we can talk later about that . I love Nicholas because he's the only one in my life that was hot 🔥 enough to my standards to actually to not only put his penis inside me and penetrate my p**** until it ejaculates but feed me his cum when ever he was blessed enough to get it because the turn after he even had at me well eventually blue balls became a factor and he had no choice but to say ( HEY BABY LAY ON YOUR BACK FOR YO DADDY AND SPREAD THEM LEGS WIDE OPEN AND SPREAD EAGLE POSITION AND GET SERVED SOME DICK BABY ) every time even if I was mad at him I had no choice but a smile on my face and really love it and enjoy every 2 minutes of it even though I didn't get off I appreciate him for putting his penis in me . But I'm starting to get more pissed off at GOD again talking about it because. what the fuck did I do to deserve to live every moment wishing lusting and craving the kind of sex I can't ever have. I do truly believe it the hot 🔥 nasty sex I desire and so that's really craving want that the devil 😈 and God have three somes and hot 🔥 nasty orgies too that not fantasy but fucking reality in my life like I'm the one on television ok y'all . And I also believe GOD gets off too by my emotional pain and suffering. So please everybody Im so sick and twisted and pathetic and worthless and fat I need help offing myself because at this point I'm ok with the world 🌎 and it's ways winning I just don't want to be here anymore . I ruined my life along time ago when I choose to eat tons of McDonald's and ramen noodles and fatten my fat nasty stretch mark body into torturing you guys when I take off my cloths or give blow jobs and make fat girl grunts and disturbing cow noises while fighting to get your cum out of your penis . I know just me writing that makes me say ok relapsing right fucking now as soon as I can get a pip and shit up in here I'm putting my mouth and lips on that pip and sucking but better then I do penis . That's pathetic I know and ashamed I know . Please help me strangers take the privilege and except the new journey to meeting my death and committing suicide. I'm assuming it will take about 6 months from now maybe a year whatever Nick gets out of jail that situation right there will be the test of it all . And I know I love him so God damn much that he will be the one to take me out but not literally when he looks in my eyes and says bitch I don't know you I don't love you it never did with a hot 🔥 slut bitch on his shoulder with them both looking at me pure disgust and anointment that a fat nasty weirdo ugly ratched creature should even exist . Anyways so let me get to the goddamn fucking point here I need y'all to continue to do what y'all have always done well most of you wast my time . Make appointments and not show .and then when you do show you degrade me to the point I feel so awkward dirty and little but then look in the mirror and remember I'm not little I'm fat witch is worse my niggas 😭😂🤣🤣 . I said in my headline ( why are all the hot guys gay ❓) well Im so desperate for money because I'm retarded and just don't know how to do shit that I'd rather sell wack sex then go get a job because I know I'm so dirty worthless and retarded that I'll either fuck up and get fired or quit because it's to fucking hard. Harder then the dick get to suck and have gotten out of ridding because I'm to lazy and fat to go hard and ride on some penis . Im hoping that there may be some people out there who understand how I feel and have some condolences to being so fat nasty dirty and worthless that you'll help me on this new journey to off myself. And then there's those people out there who just fucking piece of shit.but when it comes to me and you standing next to each other i literally am the biggest fat nasty stinky terd that reeks of this world 🌎 with just my name is said without my fucking presents around. I have a idea my black hot 🔥 friend that is gay we both need money and I hit on him all the time and he just ignores it because he's trying to not only stop himself I'm throwing up 🤮🤢🤢 but making a fool out of me for me even thinking I could have him right. There's no feelings right there and that relationship between us just love of him being in my life and very kind to me but nothing on no level of Titanic love making goes through my mind at all . But I ain't gonna lie I wouldn't mind licking his penis or just tasting it even after he just got done fucking a transgenders ass . So is there any gay men out there who want there buttholes fucked by a black nigga monsta cock dick. And after he ejaculates in your butt I'll suck his penis off . At that time I will have eaten my fucking words and will no what penis that smells like butthole taste like it will be more traumatized and embarrassed to continue my days on planet earth 🌎 but I'm afraid that that situation will not be it it'll be Nicholas Gene Miesner that we'll have the final say in my fate . Oh we both want to get paid not just me especially if I'm sucking penis after been caught in some filthy butt . Hit me up if your interested in love you all even if you don't love me and used to work hard but not anymore at persecuting me cuz I do it most of the time to meself . If your interested I'll send you a picture of my gay friend . But I can't put his pictures on my ad cuz it'll get me kicked off here because he doesn't have a account with this site thank you .